I was actually going to talk about starting the PhD, so I started talking a little bit about social anxiety because it was, and still is a problem. Then I decided half way through making the video that I’d talk a bit more about it. There is a lot more to it than this, I’m only talking about what happens at uni. I hate to talk about my anxiety to people because it makes me even more nervous. It’s actually very stupid, what I am afraid of is that people will see how afraid I am. Will people see my hands shake? Can people hear my heart beat? Am I blushing? Talking to a camera is a lot easier because no one is watching these things. It makes me even more nervous that this is all happening at the psychology department. I have had this problem for a long time, but haven’t really made videos about it. I actually have made a few, but i haven’t uploaded them. I almost wasn’t going to upload this one. I have had talk therapy and taken SSRIs for it as well as for depressive episodes that I’ve had through out life. Unfortunately the thing that works the best for me is alcohol. Even that can sometimes make me even more anxious, so it’s a gamble. Although I’m lucky as it’s mild to moderate in severity, so I am able to live a fairly functional life, especially thanks to a lot of things being done online. And there a few friends who I feel very comfortable around and can do a lot more things around them. They probably would not know about my problem at all. People are affected by social …